Thursday, February 16, 2012

Sunday Picnic and a Broken Heart

Hi there,
I made a layout of Luke flying his Batman kite, who says you can't make boy layouts flowery?! I love this Sunday Picnic line by Websters Pages. If you are in New Jersey, you can get the full line of paper at Paper Wings.

I am going to get very personal and serious now, if you choose to move on, now is your chance.
Recently I shared some Project Life pages and the news that we were expecting. Yesterday I had an ultrasound and was devastated to learn there was no longer a heartbeat and my baby stopped growing. After my last appointment my doctor thought I was "out of the woods" so we started sharing our happy news with everyone.
This is my third pregnancy loss and this one seems to be hitting me the hardest. Maybe because deep down I know I can't bear to go through this again, so the hope of a sweet little baby to hold in my arms, love, smell, and snuggle has been lost.
For the past 6 weeks since I found out, I have dreamed of kissing little fingers and toes, nursing my baby and spending hours watching him/her sleep. My sweet little Luke has been overjoyed with the prospect of a brother or sister and his little heart was broken when we explained to him that our baby went to Heaven. (I found this book to read to him, it had good reviews for children his age.)
For those of you blessed with healthy babies, remember how precious every moment is with them and for those of you that share a similar experience, I grieve along with you and the loss of your angel babies.

"An Angel in the book of life wrote down our babies birth, and whispered as she closed the book....."Too beautiful for earth." -Author Unknown